03 May Extending My Stay in Nicaragua
EXTENDING MY STAY IN NICARAGUA
Hellooooo…….anyone still there? *crickets* Anybody?
I don’t even know how to begin this post. It’s been far too long since I’ve last updated you guys on my life here in Nicaragua. It was what…..2 months ago since I last blogged. Being extremely busy, coupled with the extreme heat, being tried for majority of the day, the extreme miserable heat, the lack of motivation to do practically anything, oh and did I mention the heat? All of that combined made me one bad blogger. One who couldn’t even muster up the strength to look at her site let alone write on it. But alas the blogging bug has bit me again. My hands were itching (all my writers out there know what I mean) to get back to blogging. I have so much to catch you guys up on.
If you remember in THIS POST initially I was only supposed to be in Nicaragua for three months. Well three months has turned into almost a year. I’ve officially decided on extending my stay in Nicaragua. In the beginning of March it was becoming very clear to me that I was NOT ready to go home. Anytime I thought about it my heart would shatter into tiny little pieces. Before I left home I was already sick and tired of my routine. Tired of my job, tired of the monotony, tired of feeling like I was accomplishing nothing. What kept me going was the fact that I knew I was working for something fulfilling. I was working toward coming here. If I went back to that life what would I be working for? I didn’t want to be sucked up into the viscous cycle of punching a clock, even if I did have the easiest job in the world, when I knew that’s not what I foresaw in my life. So I started asking myself an innumerable amount of questions. “What exactly would I be going back home to?” Answer: Besides my family and friends, nothing. “What pressing responsibilities do I have back home that need to be attended to immediately?” Answer: None. “What do I have to gain by going home after these three months?” Answer: Comforts of home that I can live without. “What do I have to gain by staying in Nicaragua longer?” Answer: EVERYTHING.
I’m not gonna life. Sometimes it’s hard being here. Sometimes I wish I could just go home. But when I sit down and think about things from a positive perspective I realize that there are bigger problems in the world than what I’m facing here. I have a lot to gain from being here. Apart from learning new things about myself and growing as a person, Nicaragua has been a blessing in so many different ways. While making plans to come volunteer here I was placed with a roommate. I didn’t meet her until I got here and we only talked on the phone once before our arrival. Now……I couldn’t love her more. Our personalities really compliment each other. She’s more of the assertive, controlling (in a good way) type. I’m more laid back and go with the flow. I think if I were more like here we would probably be arguing the whole time about whose way is best. If she were more like me nothing would ever get done and no decision would ever get made. It has truly been so rewarding and such a blessing to have her in my life. I’m eternally grateful for us being roommates and getting the rare opportunity to experience together the highs and lows of living here. I’ve officially adopted her as my big sister. Don’t we look alike? (Sorry for the extra grainy pic)
She was actually planning on being here for a year anyway. That was another thing that was in my favor. I have a place with a roommate that I actually like who plans on staying longer. Why not take advantage of that and stay longer too? It only makes sense to me.
The main challenge staying longer posed was a financial one. I had saved up quite a bit to be here but I told my employer (my uncle) that I would be returning in the beginning of April. When I told him about my possibly staying longer he decided that instead of waiting upon my return he would have to offer my job to someone else. I completely understood but it put me in a pickle. Then I had other “friends” whispering in my ear saying that I needed to go home and make money. That maybe I could save up and come back later on in the year. They were trying to be reasonable and I’m sure they meant well and I can’t say that their arguments didn’t make sense. How would I continue to support myself with no money coming in and living off the little that I had? Budgeting and faith that’s how. I talked to my parents about it and with their generous support and loving reassurance I officially quit my job and made my decision to stay in Nicaragua for an additional three months. Now my plan is to be here until the very beginning of August, go back home and work for a little bit, then make my return to Nicaragua in September and stay until January. I couldn’t be any happier with my decision.
This year has proven to be a whirlwind. My best friend is getting married (I forget to tell you guys my friend Ashley is engaged!), I was supposed to be in Nicaragua for three months, quit my job, decided to stay for an additional three months and I’m coming back later on in the year. I wouldn’t change any of it for the world. I’m living my dream guys. 2016 has been amazing so far and I can’t wait to see what else it has in store.
So there ya have it! A little update about everything that’s been going on in my life. I’m really going to try to stay on top of blogging. It’s hard but I need it. Writing this has been so cleansing for my soul. I feel at ease now. I hope you all have been doing well! Leave a comment down below and let me know what you’ve been up to! I’d love to hear all about it. Catch you guys later!