Getting Back to the Blog & Current Emotions

Hey ladiiieesss!!!!! OMG it’s been forever since I’ve last spoken to you all. You know how sometimes you just get in a funk? We all have our moments. I think I just needed a little break from things. I was viewing this blog more as a chore than a hobby so I needed to just step away for a bit and reevaluate why I started blogging in the first place. To jot down what’s going on in my life so I can look back in the future and of course to talk to you guys!

With that being said my emotions have been on high as of late. Which is partly another reason why I haven’t been blogging. Recently I was browsing the Internet for different quotes and things that kind of explain how I was feeling when I found the quote above. Granted most people have siblings so a lot of you reading this might not understand exactly how true this quote is, so let me try to explain.

When you have a sibling, be it a sister or a brother, that’s a permanent spot that no one can replace. Your sister will always be your sister and your brother will always be your brother. Sure you might not be close but that’s a place that your sibling will always hold. As an only child you don’t have that. You’re not someones permanent spot. Sometimes that’s a scary thought, for me at least. You feel like you’re disposable. Like you’re only important to someone when they need you to be. I’m sure that isn’t the case at all but when you’re caught up in your feelings your bound to think all types of crazy things. Little things cause me to overreact and think that I’m losing the people closest to me. I hate that. I wish that I felt that I was a permanent part of someones life.  I’m sure my past friendships and how they ended has a lot to do with why I feel the way I do and why I react the way I do to certain things. I honestly think I’m a different breed of human lol. I tend to keep these feelings to myself which is counter productive because I end up writing things like this with tears pouring out of my eyes. But I think getting it down on paper it is just what I need.

For me being an only child brings on an onslaught of emotions that majority of the ones in my life can’t understand. Feelings that they will NEVER be able to understand. So what do you do when you the ones you turn to have never experienced the type of emotions that you’re feeling or have never been in the same boat as you? Internalize. Which as I mentioned before really doesn’t get you anywhere. That’s why I completely understand the quote above. You can’t get rid of being an only child. It’s something that’s stuck with you forever just like a disease. Of course being around my friends helps but then they go back to their families and siblings. At times I feel like I’m being a burden when I ask them to go places or do things with me because I know that they have their lives outside of me that they have to give attention to. I need to form an only child club lol.

I didn’t write this out of self pity or to get pity from others. I wrote it to get it off my chest. Now I feel a thousand times better :). I promise to do better as far as blogging guys! I’ve missed it! I’m striving to blog at least 3 times a week. Let’s see how that goes. Oh and happy Monday! Talk to you all later!

What are your thoughts on only children? Are any of you only children?

 

8 Comments
  • Mimi
    Posted at 09:31h, 04 August Reply

    I totally get you! I’m an only child and when my mother died I just longed for someone else to go through it with because I felt like I was all alone. While others knew and cared for her no one else had that bond and could say they were feeling exactly what I was.

    I had two children for the sole purpose of them having a sibling. Sometimes I watch them in awe and wish I had that type of relationship with someone.

    It is what it is at this point!! Glad to see you back.

    • reeseandcoco
      Posted at 10:28h, 04 August Reply

      So sorry for your loss girlie. But it’s good to know that I’m not crazy! Lol. I feel like us “only’s” have an extra set of emotions that no one else gets. Glad that we can sympathize with each other

  • Robin
    Posted at 10:06h, 04 August Reply

    I absolutely positively don’t feel that you’re a burden when u ask your friends to do things with u. I love hanging out with u lol. But i do know how u feel now that you’ve gotten this off your chest. I get that feeling all the time when I talk to my mom about things. I’m glad u feel better. Love ya!

    • reeseandcoco
      Posted at 10:28h, 04 August Reply

      Awwww thanks! Love you too!

  • Karen Jackson
    Posted at 11:59h, 04 August Reply

    I’m not an only child, but I am the parent of an only child. There is a very special place in a mother’s heart for her children. A place so special that you only come to know this place after you’ve had children. As my only child, you occupy this place all by yourself. There is not another person on this Earth that shares this special place in my heart. – it’s all yours and you’ll be there FOREVER,!!! (Can’t get no more permanent than that!)

    • reeseandcoco
      Posted at 12:35h, 04 August Reply

      Thanks motherin!

  • Roni Faida
    Posted at 12:40h, 05 August Reply

    I’m really sorry you feel that way! But I can’t relate at all. I LOVE being an only child. ABSOLUTELY love it. I have never felt disposable. In fact, I was raised in a cocoon of love and I feel special, always have. My parents (and the rest of my family) have always made me feel so secure with their love that I can’t even imagine having a sister or a brother.

    My opinion matters. I was always asked, “What do you want to do?” “What do you want for dinner?” I have friends with siblings that never got to choose, they just had to deal with whatever came up. Not me. I have dear friends that I can turn to if I need a listening ear, and a couple of cousins that are sister-like.

    I have NEVER thought of being an only child as a disease. It makes me so happy that my dad calls me his “Little girl” and there is NO one else in the world that can have that title. And the fact that people love and adore my parents and I’m the only one in the world that gets to call them mom and dad? Girl I love it.

    • reeseandcoco
      Posted at 13:41h, 05 August Reply

      OMG! I’m so glad to get a positive viewpoint on the matter. I will agree it has it’s advantages but for me the disadvantages outweigh the advantages. I love hearing together peoples viewpoints though. Thanks Roni!

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